Thursday, October 12, 2006

them...

been feeling so down ever since we met them. at first we thought they were so fun... then things had to become so complicated. the world is really that small to begin with... sigh... stuffed up is seriously the word to describe how i feel lately... yesterday i could read the newspapers till i feel like sobbing my lungs and heart out.

am i being too much of a protector? am i too little of a risk-taker? am i just too narrow a thinker? all of a sudden i wanna be back in singapore with the familarity of the surroundings and seek solace in his arms.

wish i could turn back time. back to when we could hv been strong-willed and stayed home instead of heading to lavish. then perhaps things wouldn't have gotten more complicated. and i would be less stuffed up than i already am.

perhaps poppy-ishy candies will help me let go tmr night and from there i will force myself to move on.... concentrate on my exams... for i do not wish to let all this fail me and my papers and all the other consequences that follow. i will be strong and i am strong. let all these be the fuel and catalyst my power within.