Friday, April 20, 2007

thru the other

i am in a bouncy mood the whole day. work ends half an hr earlier today. bt end up can't leave cos waiting for uncle nick to end work at 6pm. perhaps i am happy cos i met jamie & cindy yest at balaclava, bumped into estee. yest at tampines i bumped into daphne. all ppl i havent met up with for a long time.

1st week of work and it was archipelago on mon & tues, wed soka and thurs balaclava. wonder what is on tonight. kinda love gg out aft work instead of heading home straight as i had intended to. perhaps cos i am roomless yet agn due to renovations.

was excited abt what i wanna do tonight. but then i had to use up my free time to wait for uncle nick and started reading someone's blog. and the mood changed/flipped/dropped WHATEVER.

i guess i made the right choice. i have no idea what is going on. you never told. all i knew was about that pair of aviators. hair color change, i have no idea as well. all the fun, i don't knw. cos all the outings in between work where that person is, i thought it was all stressed up with totally no time for phone calls. and i saw that that wasn't the case. it was too much of fun that i guess i could be just chucked aside.

feeling cheated. feeling hurt. feeling so damn hurt. feeling damn damn hurt. feeling sick in the tummy. feel mentally grogy. i cant let it out. i wanna be wringed dry like a wet cloth. to be zapped out of all my energy and go all limp and just go into a daze. so i cant think cos i dun wanna think. i think too much bt i cant help it.

let me let you go...